Suck It All Up Poem by Shilesha Johnson

I would just lash out
Drop you and cut you off completely
Try all I could to forget us
And what used to be
Forget what we had
Never to look back
And just forget about the past
I could try my hardest to feel emotionless
And forget about our new friendship
But I realize I can’t do that because I love you too much
Because if something were to ever happen to you
I would never be able to live with myself inside
Knowing I never got the chance to say goodbye
So I suck my hurt pain and emotions up
And you’ll never be able to tell
You wouldn’t know the difference between
Me being UP or if I fell
If I cried or if I smiled
It would be all the same to you
That is what I have to do now