I think I should have wrote,
a little suicide note.
In case I decide to end it all,
I wouldnt have to make a call.
It might be under the moon or sun,
maybe by hanging or gun.
It may be during the day or night,
I didnt know which was right.
No one will find me,
I dont want anyone to see,
what I have done,
under the disappearing sun.
I had to get those thoughts out of my head,
even if it means being dead.
Even if my life wasnt that bad,
its my head that was making me sad.
I was sick of trying to strive,
struggling with myself to stay alive.
I felt like I wasnt worth a thing,
I pretended to be happy and sing.
I wish this was a lie,
but truly I wished to die.
No one knew I felt this way,
because I refused to say.
Never again will I see the sun,
truly sorry if I hurt anyone.
I couldnt deal with it like a man,
so I decided to go with the suicide plan.
Hmm in a way I think I like feeling this way. Well maybe not like it, but I am used to it. I mean of course I feel happiness, I have had good moments in life. But probably 60-70% of the time I am depressed and feel this way. So I really wouldnt know what to do if I was happy all the time =D
No, dont think that...life is short..be strong its always got away...just faith in God and he will show you the way.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
'Help' has never helped me. And I am not reaching out, and I wouldnt really do it. Truth is, I am to scared that I would screw up and end up like a vegetable. And you dont think II realize that it will affect the people I leave behind? Tanks for pointing out the obvious