Suppose To Do Poem by Lyric Hernandez teardrop

What am i suppose to do when I'm scared of the light and fear the dark running with nowhere to go wanting somebody to stop me tell me that I'm okay and that this is were i belong letting me be who I am feeling trapped when I'm really free wanting to break out of this imaginary cage that I'm trapped in. My mind doesnt seem to stop playing games. Everything around seems to be spinning, fading. I'm feeling paralyzed but every part of my body moves. I feel like a ghost walking around floating around when I walk. Feeling lost not knowing where to run to. To go and cry everything thats inside of me. I close my eyes and see a coffin and a rose on top. I open my eyes and all I see is the rose. So I'm scared to sleep. It all seems crazy but its not. Its scary to see that I am okay and your still behind. How does it make you feel to see that I've accomplished so much in just a short period of time. Your not the only one that can accomplish things. The only difference is that I messed up and still came back.