Terrified Of Me... Poem by Katherine Bryce

Do you know,
know how it feels?
No of course not,
how could I expect,
someone to understand it all,
understand the fear,
the pain
it's so much.
You've yet to discover,
that we all hold fear
within ourselves,
but you don't yet get it,
do you?
I'm not who I claim to be,
I'm not strong through the pain,
I'm not brave through the fear,
I'm just not!
I don't know,
where or when,
I'll finally realize it,
realize that I need help,
that I need someone,
to call my strength.
We all need someone like that...
Someone to be strong
when we are weak,
someone to be brave
when we want to run and hide.
I've never said this before,
but I know deep down inside it's true,
I'm scared to know,
who I really am.
I'm scared to know who
I'll be.
I don't want to know her,
that person that is staring
at me in the mirror.
She frightens me!
I know that she
knows what she's doing
I know that she,
will be the best that she can.
But I'm not like that.
I'm not wise,
or strong
or brave
or anything of that sort,
I'm just me....
a terrified being...
Terrified of me...