That Special Place Poem by Sugar Bear

Higher, their voices rise near my face
And my body just fades away..
To that emotionless peaceful state
I would forever claim
Where I’m never wrong, no one’s there to judge me
Where I can finally…breathe
Block my ears, I know I’m getting scared..
But I don’t want them to see my tears

I had a bad day, my mama’s yelling “Get a job.”
Dad’s only making me block
I just don’t want to be touched, right now
I’m not giving you attitude, I just want to go lay down
Hide under my bed, pillow over my head
So I don’t have to hear a sound

Middle of the night, my sisters screaming “Where’s my shoes? ”
How am I supposed to know her every move? I’m so confused.
Now daddy’s yelling “Get up! ” find them or let her take yours
No further word, she’s already out the door

Next day follows, now I don’t have my shoes for work
My parents are getting on my last nerves
And I just fade away to my special place
Slow motioned I can’t hear the things they say
I know, I’m already at home
But home now, feels so far wrong

I’m just tired of trying to do what’s right
When everybody doesn’t see me try
It’s not funny, who’s laughing at me now?
Just another person who I just ex’d out

I thank God for showing that place
For keeping that smile on my face
For teaching me ignore the crushing things they say
Cause only there, can I
Escape