The Affects Of Abuse Poem by Jon Evans

How is it I still feel the pain?
It still rips me apart.
Why am I left here in the dark?
It overwhelms me.
What am I meant to do?
I just can't move on.
No matter what I do it all seems to come back
It will never leave me alone
Stalks me everywhere I go
Teases me every time I close my eyes
Torments me.
How is anyone meant to understand,
When I can't even understand myself?
I remember the hopelessness, the blame, the fear.
I remember the hitting, the shouting, the put downs.
Why does this remain inside? It's been so long.
I remember the bullying, the belittling, the lies.
I remember it somehow being my fault.
Every day ever since the world has been black
My body has felt so hollow
Even my one faint bit of hope doesn't seem to be able to overcome,
What you've done to me is taken my childhood, my life.
How do you just move on? It's now a part of me
I'm still embarrassed about it, still can't express myself
You were meant to be someone who I could trust,
Someone who looked after me,
Yet you have destroyed my soul, destroyed my mind, destroyed me.