The Bottom Of This Bottle Poem by nikki hays

The answers to all my questions are in the bottom of this bottle

Will this never ending thirst ever be quenched

I lay here in the tub staring at the ceiling

When will this nightmare ever end

I scream your name so loud my eardrums burst

You never come this starts the thirst

The hunger that burns deep within

To hold you close to take you down

To have you enter me right now

god i want so bad i cry

for immortality id die

And so in sorrow and disregard

I take myself and drink down hard

this burning feeling now it starts

It takes away my pain and scars

And helps me see tommorrow

The terror builds in me sometimes

I know your love but im still blind

The glass that in this bottle hides

The truth i so desperatley need to find

I need it more than ever

As the last dropp hits my lips

I search with my own finger tips

I need it cant you see me slip

Into sadness further

So if the answers are not within

Ill smash this glass and rip my skin

And watch the crimson flow begin

This is what i now seek

Put an end to what i see

Send me on to victory

As to hells gates i wander free

I know he'll take me in