The Cause Of It All Poem by Gavin Nelson

Maybe all you could see was my sadness
Maybe you never really discovered the truth
It seems like your constant never endlessness
Got the better of both of us
I hate to lie, I hate liars, I hate everything about liars, lying …you
It’s hard to say what a difference you made
It’s hard to look at you and… feel
Feel for you, for yourself, for what you are, for who you were, who you want to be
I was constantly coughing up your asphyxiation
Regurgitating your helpless cry for attention
It did no good
I learned to deal with it
Ignore it
You took this and fought back but I held up my shield and turned you away
The tears, the emotion, the hope that never reached the surface suddenly poured through and flooded my heart.
I asked myself why
I still ask why
To question my own emotion is like not knowing who I was
Who am I?
What have you done?