The Charamatic's Confession Poem by James Darwin Smith II

Too many lies under an asunder graze
Not enough factual evidence
Upon whom I really am
Multiplicity of thoughts blind with rage
To others who never saw me coming

Tanked out without a doubt
Tired and fatigued as well
Let’s open the air with probabilities
As we close down improbable notions for good

Feeling so lethargic right now
Tired of being tired you could say
If the world is full of make believe
Then why is there a problem with mine?

My world is deeply inside my own head
For good or bad, you could say
Thoughts grow convenient yet benign at times
When everything goes sublime
I feel so wonderfully at rest

Yet, The bad does come
Spinning my world all around
At this moment
I am fighting for a fresh new day
Where I concentrate in what I need to do, today

The truth I want, the truth I need
Of who I am, how am I perceived?
I should not really care
Or really not care
I am just a mixed bag of multitudes
Please, never be scared

But even at that
All I am is me
A dreamer of light
An actor acting in dark
A radiant spark
But a harmless lark

An emotional being
Crying on the inside
With too much pride
That has made me watch like go on by

Do not take this as sadness
Or madness as well
Know me for my own enigmatic existence
Well, if you so much dare

Beyond that
There is so much truth
Within my heart
If only I can slow my mind
Before my tongue takes its toll

The endless line
There is so much to me
No bottom is needed
Because my spirit
Even through the bad and good
Will always remain free

Nothing is as complicated as it sounds
Unless you truly wish it all to be

This is a wakeup call
For those whom have judged
Welcome, to your own reality

Have you yet realized?
There is so much more than me than even me
The inside has more reality that the outside
Do you even want to believe?

Believe in me
Watch me now
As I retrieve all of my own energy
All when the sun comes out for good
Upon blessed days of metaphoric joy

Am I so complicated after all?
So, what do you say now?

Let us not celebrate yesterday or tomorrow
Let us celebrate today

What does that mean?
Only you will ever know the answer
Have a wonderful day