The Choice Poem by Keegan Cooke

I hope to God I made the right choice
I wonder if she can hear the pain in my voice
Have I ruined something good? Or just saved myself?
My thoughts are raging through my head how I felt

I'm so confused... why is this so hard?
All of my decisions are tearing me apart
All of my promises run through my mind
Have I held true? Or have I left her behind?

How happy she made me, and those feelings I miss
I never thought that it would be like this
She made me feel like I could do anything
But after everything I feel so tired and drained

I wonder if even God could relieve this pain
I am lost and without any answers
I feel I have become my own cancer
If there is a cure for this, I can't find it

Should I still resist? Or just give in and submit?
I thought I knew myself, but I guess I was wrong
I don't know anything anymore, I've been lost all along
I remember life being perfectly clear, when everything made sense

Maybe I'm going crazy, but I can't stand the suspense
I'm not asking for the world, all I want is to know
To know why I feel like we're both letting go
You told me once that we would never grow apart

But do you still feel that way deep inside your heart?
I miss everything you gave me, and everything we had
And it kills me inside to wonder if we can never go back
Maybe someday my life will be back on track

Even if it doesn't I'll be here waiting
Waiting for the day that I have been praying for