The Fear Of Life Poem by Trysta Due

I never thought that I'd be here
Sitting alone with nothing but to think,
Thinking of all the things in my head
The things that make me not want to blink,
I don't want to close me eyes again
To see them there in my mind,
All the problems, regrets, and fears
Things that have all made me blind,
I've been blind to it for too long
It's time I just open my eyes and see,
That I need to do the right thing
To put things to how they're supposed to be,
I've been through hell and back
Just to see if I could find the right one,
But all my attempts have failed
All because I never thought I won,
No matter who I was with
Everything ended up going wrong,
And now as I sit here all alone
Listening to this one song,
I'm wishing that I had that person
To sit with me and hold on to me,
The way I've always dreamt they would
But never thought it was meant to be,
I don't think I'm worth all the pain
All the things that people go through,
They went through it for me
And now I don't know what to do,
I want to find that one person
The one that won't end up breaking my heart,
But I'm stuck in a predicament
Of trying to find out where I should start,
To start putting my life back together
And to keep myself away from the pain,
Away from all the regrets that I have
And to find the way to keep me sane.