I want so desperately to bleed,
but I can't understand why;
All these empty feelings inside
only leave me wanting to cry.
I wonder where it all went wrong,
why do I feel this way?
My life is finally going right,
there's no reason to feel so gray.
I try to help my friends be happy,
but it's so hard when I'm not,
I force a smile on my face
and try to hide these dark thoughts.
But they've gotten so overwhelming,
I can no longer ignore their pleads,
it takes so much not to give in.
How do I fix this? What do I need?
This fight inside is growing worse,
I no longer know what to do,
I try to trust in God,
but it's hard with these feelings so new.
Help me. Save me. Rescue me.
You could say it in so many ways.
I wish I could understand what I did that made me stray
and forget His loving gaze.
I'm nothing without Him, I keep reminding myself,
but that's so hard to believe when I feel so lost.
I feel like nothing everyday,
even with Him on my side,
how can I keep my focus on Him
when He keeps choosing to hide?
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem