The First Poem by Brandon Trabalka

I thought I understood love,
That I was its master
And had wrestled its secrets free
But I was wrong

She appeared at first in shadow
A form that I could not see
But whose voice I could hear
A newcomer to my life

She became all I could think off
When we grew near it made my heart faster
Her face I could now see to a degree
My feelings grew so strong

I wished time was something I could borrow
For love was not what it should be
Without knowing she became my puppeteer
Holding my heart hostage with a knife

Her face I could then see
Beauty so rare
The world became dark without it
And I longed for more

Eyes as captivating as gems
Hair that flowed like water
Skin so smooth
An aura so sweet

She held my hearts key,
And soon I would despair
Even though I hated to admit
Her hand I could not ask for

We would become nothing more than friends
My courage began to falter
Pain that time could not sooth
For her affection I could not compete

She began to fade from my existence,
Someone always toyed with her heart
Yet I could not help her heal
Without her rejecting my love

The shadows soon overtook her
Leaving me alone
With only the fading light
That made her sparkle

In time I focused on resistance,
Trying not to break apart
Loneliness was all I could feel
For her affection I was unworthy of


To this day my heart will stir
Confused by what I once had known
My understanding of love had never been right
And it resulted in a debacle