The Gift Of Ennui Poem by RIC BASTASA

laugh at me
i want to hear the hardest laugh
from you

at the last hour
i want to see that wry smile
of the monotony

everyday i come to you
for worship
bowing before your
seductions

and everyday i pray before God
and ask forgiveness
for my failures
i pray that He may grant me
the gift of ennui
that at the end you may become
one tedious thing
so i may not come back again
and ask for your graces & mercies

laugh at me
i will say i love you
i will say i adore you
and that i cannot live without you

laugh the hardest
& i will keep on hearing your music
to my ears

i am waiting for the moment
of boredom
so i can finally be free from this desire
this love
that i know is never meant for its fulfillment

the reasons are not on our side
the world and the heavens
do not give its blessing

Oh God! when shall its end be!
Oh Monotony! where the hell are you?