The Lonely Monologue Poem by daniel delimarschi

I can't remember my first steps,
Nor can I predict my last ones,
Encircled by darkness, I can't see a light
I have no other choice, but to try to fight.
After difficulties I faced, at the end of the battle
Happily, one small sparkle of light starts to unravel.
Everything paused, everything stood, I was not down yet
Because the light sparkle I saw, was that stubborn glare of my cigarette.
I had to share with those who were around me, with others
Their debt was fine and clear to me, telling me about the world's wonders.
I heard everything from their story,
At this point waking myself up was a mandatory
Woke up, in a clear afternoon,
Sun was striking, shining into me, didn't feel a thing, I was immune.
My every step felt like almost crawling
My body joined them and felt like falling.
Souls were calling me back in my bad dream
Remembered how bad it is, it can definitely be my twin.
I know, forbidden is to lose control
But how can we return something they stole?
How can we hear our inner, right voice?
Can we choose 'bad' if it's our only choice?
Yes, we go through them, we know them, because they're OUR afflictions
But there are no Stop signs ahead, so no restrictions
Got to keep breaking any rule
Like it's the last and foremost day of school.
No life is more important than yours
COME and spend your life outdoors!
Remember, it's your story and you depend on it,
Don't worry, God is forgiving even when you don't want to admit
Take your time to look along at the clear day sky
Feel the spirits come to you in a choir outcry
Hear them calling you to your new home
They want you to be their next on the throne
But how come they don't want you a king, no!
You start screaming, they hear nothing but your echo
You don't have to guess, you're the prey in this scenario
Fear in the veins and underneath the heart starts to grow
Realising, the dream you hate came back
Another thing it does, it offers the worst flashback
Your sight is foggy
Nature around is on a living spree
Everything is so beautiful from the outside
Bodies everywhere start to glide
Paranoia thoughts just sighed
Losing control is forbidden
Don't just flip the table and say 'I'm done'
What if someone asks you the question that hurts the most?
'Have you ever seen a ghost? '
Please, search for the right questions, not the answers
Or they'll leave you here like they did with the last beggars.
'So you think your life is screwed? '
'No, but j'ai peur de la solitude'
'Really? Is that supposed to be important? '
'I'm just trying to be patient'
'Take your things and get out
And you better do that before the lights are out'
'it's my dream and I do what i want with it
God forgives even something I won't admit'
There's nothing left
Like someone committed the grand theft.
Cloudy and a lot of fog
This is another chapter of the lonely Monologue
Turn around and leave
Your whole army says it's time to retrieve
What if.... Everything you're going through is preparing you for what you asked for?
Are you going to take the first open door?
You know you're progressing because you struggled
All this distance travelled
Just to find out this story's tangled.