The Lost Part Of The Family Poem by jools England

I still see your face in my dreams
it hurts and it doesn't help at all
I still want you in my life, as crazy as that seems
I want you to catch me when I fall

I still remember the last time we met
There was something so different about you
our fight is something I regret
that look you gave me was so new

Out of nowhere you used to call on the phone
I wanted to sit there and talk to you forever
This situation now is so unknown
I'd never have thought our friendship would sever

Now you fill my day with so much strife
what happened to the way this used to be?
But you walked out of my life
and I sat there for a long time, pretending not to see

I decided to go out and make it all right
It didn't work out, of course, it couldn't
I couldn't even stand your sight
It shouldn't end this way but it did and I shouldn't

But I miss the person you used to be
Ten years from now I'll look back on it all
I will be older and finally able to see
that family will stand the test and never fall