The Love Letter Poem by Kevin Carney

Alone, all alone in the darkness of night.
So quiet in a mood of deep contemplation.
The loneliness of my thoughts,
my feelings of desolation.
It’s a war within the mind,
my tears of utter frustration holding back.

So dark I feel the sadness of my own life.
Frustration brooding deep within my soul.
Insecurities in my feelings, not knowing how to control it all.
It’s such a screwed up place to be in…

I don’t think I will see the light.
I don’t know where I can go.
I don’t know what to do.
I don’t know how I can change this situation.

You came into my life;
I remember when, such a bright spot you were.
You came with all the trials and tribulations,
of what I thought could be love.
At least that is what I thought, never so sure with you…
Such a strange girl, so hard to figure, living so deep within.

It was your beauty, a soft and gentle way to you.
It was your eyes, burning in a fire that radiates.
The way you smile, enchanting and haunted…that's all I have to say.
That was all I would ever need.

I knew I could love you unconditionally.
I knew I couldn’t find anyone like you ever again, your one of a kind.
I knew I wanted you through all your quirks, I knew it didn’t matter.
I knew I never have fallen so hard before.

Maybe I took it for granted,
maybe I needed to take a step back.
I thought I saw you for what you were;
I knew it was going to be hard.
I want to take the chance to spend my time with you,
it’s been so strange.
So painful, so down I get, the times away from you….

I am waterfall in this drama, falling out of control,
crashing down upon the rocks.
Such a loud roar, really it’s my soul tearing itself apart.
I tried to adapt, change myself, to let you see it’s you that I need.
We have some moments, I think it might …I don’t know.

I, fear I will stay in the darkness.
I, fear I will have to endure the pain and sorrow.
I, fear I will lose my senses…
I fear my own failure, sentenced to the lifelong loneliness.

My walls are closing in,
the waters of sorrow rising above my head.
I have tried so hard to gain you in the end.
Something inside me speaks of this might be the end.
Listen, to it or it will be my self destruction;
I almost would prefer that, than to lose.

This is all for you, I hope you realize it,
I’ve swallowed my pride.
It’s a last move of desperation;
it’s a dark version of a love letter.
So much I need you; this is my last shot at your love.
Girl I hope you read and realize it’s all about you;
never will I be so honest, it's you I need....