The War Within Myself Poem by Stacy Bea

the war within myself

i fight daily
i fight my thoughts
if only you knew what went on in my mind
if only
if only these thoughts went away

i see death
i have watched myself kill myself hunderds of time over and over
i have seen myself die at the hand of beasts, humans
i have seen those closest to me die by my hands
i have thought so many stuff
i have wished them away
wishing doesnt work

these thought stick in my head,
for once i fear something
i fear myself
what harm can i cuase
cuase my friends
myself...