Then Thin Line Poem by Juanita Richardson

it seems like you know that i care
and its not fair
cause i dont know how you feel
you know that im honest
but honestly
i dont know how long i'll be here
today unlike yesterday
is filled with more doubt
because i know where i stand
but i have know clue what you are about
i dont like being neglected
though i would prefer it over being disrespected
i feel as if i've been more that willing to give
and you are just being overprotective
and as time passes on
i dont know if its you i want
i dont like the way i feel
though these feelings have never been more real
now im torn between the two
do i love
or do i hate you
feel like im spinning around in circles
and theres no way to escape from you
when in all actuality i dont want to
but its you that makes me want to
i cant hold on to
something that doesnt exist
i wont keep offering
if i know you are just going to resist
its got me feeling sick
and tired
im tired of trying
always proving how much i care
just to be denied it
i dont want the world
i dont even want to be your girl
but i want to know where we stand
they say a man
will be a man
and i still dont understand
why i have to be the one that suffers
maybe thats just who i am