Rebecca Moors

Rookie (05-04-82 / Wichita, Kansas)

There Never Was.... - Poem by Rebecca Moors

There are times I feel my heart cry.
Like a part of me is ready to die.
I know must go on.
But, people don't seem to understand my light is gone.
I put a smile on my face everyday, for the whole world to see.
But, I know I am not only fooling them, I am fooling me.
I feel all alone, in this dark hole I am in.
I am afraid I'll never see the light again.
I can't stand looking in the mirror.
Could this reflection get any clearer?
How can I comfort the little girl inside?
If, even myself I can't confide?
The pain is far more than I can stand.
I am in my own big ocean of tears, searching for my land.
I don't even know where to begin, to stop the hurt I swallowed myself in.
I am scared to find me again.
Why can't I be happy, I know I should be.
I know I am letting the past's pain imprison me.
Why can't I just let go, and move on?
Why can't I build up enough courage and strength and be done?
I hate myself for being so weak, and afraid.
I am at my own war, my emotions fighting their own raid.
I am so lost, without any windows to look out, showing me which way to turn.
I am to afraid too let myself mourn.
To mourn the dreams there once was.
To mourn the carfree spirit without a cause.
To mourn the little girl there never was.

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  • (1/18/2005 3:01:00 PM)

    Beautiful, Rebecca! Hauntingly so. Perhaps it's because I know about some of the pain that you've lived through. Even though I've said this a dozen times, keep writing! ! I think you're amazing! ! Much love, Tana (Report)Reply

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Poem Submitted: Sunday, January 9, 2005

Poem Edited: Sunday, January 9, 2005

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