Those Sweet Times Poem by Leah Ayliffe

I'm not supposed to say I miss you.
Today I was reminded of one of the sweet times,
Flying to North Carolina where you were stationed.
We didn't do much, you were never much for spending,
But we always had fun just staying in playing pool with Sean.

Back when things were alright,
When we saw halos staring at one another,
As though we saved each other.
I don't like remembering how it used to be,
Feels like two strangers now, and were they ever real?
We used to be so close,
I wish it didn't happen that way.
I wish you grew with me instead of pushing me away.

The good memories stained by the bad that followed.
Even when we tried to make it work,
I still felt hollow, because it hurt too much to feel it,
knowing how easy it was for you to leave me behind once before.
What would it take for you to do it all over again?
I didn't trust you anymore, my dear friend.

Friend.
We were the best 3 years ago today.
Discovering the local dive bar, singing Home, karaoke.
White roses.
By now the years made the sweet taste sour in my mind,
It's been longer time spent in the lows, or non existent, than ever spent high.

I remind myself yet again, it's been let go.
Let the past stay where it lays.
Some doors are better left closed - I know, I know.
Just today I was reminded of one of those sweet times.