How can you reason with this
Without appearing to argue
that being human
Is learning to be most
that which we are not
It's the silence scares me
In the times i have off
When not committed to
Anything committed but
The day's necessities it's
The silence scares me
And the lack of anybody
To listen scares me
That i've come to this
(or always been this) that still
I need somebody to listen
Somebody to perform to
Even though they've always been
So very few and far between
And i know too well
Her rage her impotence
As the house she's built
Like Steiner's Goetheanum burns
And there's nothing to be done
But listen to the crackling of flames
And howl at the injustice of it
And i understand this
Better than anything
The rage the impotence
It's the abyss that opens
Of meaninglessness
Wider is than Fafner's maws
The absence of sense
Just sheer non sense
Where but minutes previously
All was logic sense
The collapse of all you've worked for
The collapse of identity
This is who i am and this is what i do
Whistling down the wind
And maybe he was right
It doesn't matter what we do
It might as well be one thing as another
But try telling that to the athlete
Who's trained 6 years and finds himself
bed bound by a break or sprain
or the singer who's honed her voice
to lyrical perfection
only to wake one day
and find it gone
it matters because it matters
and maybe we can train ourselves
to accept that nothing matters
train ourselves to forgo attachment
but then we lose
not just the despair
but the anticipation
exhilaration that precedes it
and all that makes us human
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem