To A Tramp I Passed Gibbering Senselessly Poem by johannes lewinsky

I feel you i know you so well
The undifferentiated uncoordinated
Core of you that longs and sings and
Grinds over and over with the best
And the worst of me and you & knows
Knows what it is to be estranged from
Isolated from all that you would
All that you could all that you hoped for
Once upon a time so far gone
You cannot even remember

How it was full of
hope & possibility of
In a time before it was
Life got to you

I feel you and i know you so well
Because i see in you the me
I could so easily become the me
That i am already become
In the heart of me i will not reach
Where is all that i was
of myself fashioned & forced
to neglect & retract

all that i was and am
in spite of a world deplores me
and i wish that i could
the you in you that i know lurks reach
where is all the me in me
that i have abandoned since
i learned that it was
my destiny to be inchoate
with the best of them

because i know that i am
so much more than the i i am become
and could so easily become
the i that i see so plainly you have become
not meaning to become
not wanting to become but compelled
by the circumstances of your life to become

estranged from and embittered
and only waiting to be
embraced not refuted for being
the i that i am here am
gibbering senselessly