...Time... Poem by Anna Montgomery

All my life I've been so lonely
always walking on my own
fading from reality
I've become a ghost
my body may be solid
but I am invisible
I am not heard
I am a ghost
I am in denial
My parents always told me
It'll be fine
Your meds are fine
but my heart is beating
so fast too fast
I wonder if am I gonna get what
I looked for so long?
Drop dead
I always thought I wouldn't ever make it
I've always been so lonely
wondering who was gonna think of me
if anybody would
If anybody would miss me
if I ended
I wondered
but now
my heart is a ticking clock
it's telling me
that my time
is running out
drop dead
isn't that what I wanted?
But now It's not a choice
It's a curse.
I'm cursed
I've been so lonely all my life
but I didn't think
My heart would betray me
that things would end this way...