Tired

I'm tired...

I'm tired of being so paranoid.
I'm tired of being shown why I'm so paranoid.
I'm tired of being a person full of so much hate.
I'm tired of being in a world that hates instead of loves.
I'm tired of being an embarrassment to those around me.
I'm tired of being told I love you only to be shown otherwise.
I'm tired of being someone who needs to take drugs to be a good person.
I'm tired of being the one you can count on but not being able to count on anyone.

I'm tired of being...