To Anyone I'Ve Ever Loved Poem by Lauren Miller

To anyone I've ever loved,
This a sincere apology...
To myself

I'm sorry for ever wasting my time continously writing lines about their foolish ways
I'm sorry for getting strung up on every word that spilled from his mouth and lead myself on
I apologize for the way I behaved when that last fragment broke off my icy heart and pushed me over the edge
Hey me, I'm sorry for ever letting their like and dislikes become mine and losing an unattainable game
I do wish quite a bit that i could take back every secondary kiss and every single longing
I would take back the thousands of seconds that anyone inhabited my brain
I'm sorry I let myself imagine all these endless possibilities when not a single one became reality
Sincerly, Im sorry for every evacuation I had to commit to, that does terrible thing to a teenagers brain
I'm sorry for letting everyone push me around and hoping tomorrow they would change
Hey Lauren, I'm sorry for wasting endless nights on people who would continously cause harm instead of in the arms of those who wouldn't

That time he ignored every single text you sent, and how it severly bothered you, I'm sorry for letting you feel that sort of pain
Or that time when he promised he didn't but I let you create this list of excuses as to why he never would when we both knew he had
Oh and that one time when you put everything on the line and he simply didn't realize what his presence meant, I should have told you it meant nothing
I'm also sorry for all the times you felt like she should have been there, I should of let you know that you had every chance to do it on your own
And everytime you picked up fragments of her disease with the best intentions, I forgot to tell you to worry about yourself instead
I really do feel bad for everytime i let you be ingored by people who wouldn't appreciate you even if you let them into every crevice of my brain
I'm sorry for every 'I'm sorry' that I let seep through your lips when they should have been funneled through your ears instead
Every time someone walked all over you, I should have been behind you helping you stand
Every time you let someone waltz in and take your dependence I should have been showing you the true meaning of independence instead

So i would just like to say in conclusion,
I should have written this poor excuse of a poem a long time ago
and I'm sorry for ever letting you love.