'To See Myself In Your Shadow' Poem by urvashi rasaily

'TO SEE MYSELF IN YOUR SHADOW'

I let the sunshine in but still there's darkness in this heart
i tried calling your name but your reply just went in vain
I know it is not meant to be but though i lite the candles in this darkness of my heart.
No, not to find your love but to see myself in your shadow............
How bad I'm cos i love someone who is not mine
and try to find the tiny place in your heart
when i know that one day I'll be thrown apart..............

I know the candles i lit is not gonna make you mine
But maybe this candles will spread the rays of your smile and laughter in this dark hallow space in my heart...........
I don't regret this heart loving you but i regret this stupidity of loving someone whose heart loves someone else
I hate myself for possessing someone who belongs to someone else,
for making a house of cards in the summit of the mountain where there is no love, no warmth, no life only winds to freeze me and heartache to kill me.................But though i lit the candles in the darkness of this heart no, not to find your love but to see myself in your shadow........................................................................