Too Ashamed Of You Poem by Desiree Whitamore

hey, do you see me now?
see how vulnerable you left me?
see that i'm being kicked down
and see that i can't just let it be?

i don't think you know how much i hate you
how many lies i've told
but now the the truths coming out it sucks, too
but i've got too many burdens to hold.

look, i'm sorry i stuck you here.
i don't need to be reminded.
and don't blame me for running
you're the one who's been hiding.

i've been around the block
i know how this ends
we get in a fight, not talk
sooner later, back to being friends.

but thats not what i need
all i need is a dad
soon you'll be free
and i'll just stay this mad

don't you feel what i feel?
i thought we were the same.
how can you tell me its not real
dad! god! this isn't a game!

you're driving me to leave
get on with my life
if you don't care just tell me
don't just pretend that we're fine.

all i want is to show you how
hard i work for you to love me
and i'm stopping that now.
i'm sick of crying and pretending.

so step up, please. just be a dad
i'm your responsibility
i'm too ashamed to be sad