Torn Apart Poem by Vision Ghost

Have so much of love to give I suffocate myself
A tender most affection but I so dare not touch
Wishing for the jar and put me upon a dusty shelf
Nothing rings true when confusion hurts so much

Yet to feel so disingenuous from friends is pain
But reveal truest feelings is a territory of the slain
Could open up and destroy everything I created
The truest lesson learnt from cruel words berated

It’s a lonely place, but best location it seems to be
When for words of another I’d rather just be free
How I can take this, is the guess of fate and fortune
I could see the sunrise but the heat is so to swoon

Witnessed you with another I would be happy yet
I feel the dying inside; whatever emotion to select
Wishing it was really that simple for this anatomy
Of feeling so blooded and torn apart in eventuality

When care is genuine yet love is so now very feared
My vessel from warmest winds I should’ve steered
But toward you would sink my heart so much faster
So rejoice in a bottle, distractions and false laughter

And to reflect upon what right now is so very real
Sometimes wish for magic so for you I could steal
Your heart and soul but where would that lead this
To the way of make believe or the temporary bliss

The could be, might, perhaps now changes to if only
Relinquishing the abandonment to anoint the lonely
I am the dog upon a chain connected to a dark reality
So here I thirst in the sunlight inches from the watery

And let the masters of my demise kicking dry sand
Let my eyes water at least I’ve an excuse for tears
And ponder upon strangers to whom live in this land
Silently begging if not for the ever recurring fears

I wish you could see me, just to somehow realise me
If not for forever but somehow just now to free me
And place this courage I used to have before the past
To now have found something I truly feel would last