Tracks Of Life And You Poem by Saba Sheikh

I WAS FOUR WHEN FATHER HAD DIED IN WAR
MOTHER HAD PLANTED YOU TO REMOVE HIS DEATH'S SCAR
I HAD NOT KNOWN YOUR NAME
BUT YOU BLOSSOMED LIKE A FOUNTAIN
NEVER CAME A TIME YOU FAINTED
NEVER CAME A TIME YOU FADED
THEN I FOUGHT WITH MOTHER AND RAN AWAY
THROUGH THE DOOR I PASSED TAKING A GLIMPSE OF YOU FARAWAY
YOU WERE FLUTTERING IN THE WIND WAVING FAREWELL OR PERHAPS TELLING ME TO STAY
NOT CARING FOR MY MOTHER'S TEARS
NOT CARING FOR THE WORLD'S DARKEST FEARS
I STEPPED OUT
MY FACE IN A POUT
AWAY I KINDLED
TRYING TO FORGET WHERE YOU LIVED
TIME TOOK FLIGHT
DOING SOMETHING TO MY PLIGHT
OLD I AM NOW
CHANGED I AM SOMEHOW
NOT KNOWING HOW
I COULDN'T PUT YOU OUT OF MY MIND
A CORNER OF MY HEART BELIEVED YOU WERE STILL ALIVE
SO I MADE HASTE
REMEMBERING MOTHER I QUICKENED MY PACE
INSIDE THE HOUSE OF MY CHILDHOOD WENT I
BUT NOW I COULD NOT SEE HER BY THE EYE
MAYBE THE SEARCH FOR ME HAD TAKEN HER HIGH
MAYBE LORD HAD TAKEN HER ABOVE ON SCENTED WINGS TO EASE HER PAIN
HERE I AM WITH YOU AGAIN
MOTHER HAS GONE, WINTERS SNOW HAS MELTED, SUMMERS RAYS HAVE DISPERSED, SPRINGS MAGICAL AROMA HAS FADED, BUT YOU REMAIN
HERE I AM IN THE ADOLESCENT WANDERINGS AGAIN
TEARS OF GRIEF AND MEMORIES ROLLING DOWN MY FACE