my emotions i can't control,
jealousy, anger but mostly pain.
I can't understand how or why
i ended up this way.
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Struggling with life
Turning to my knife
No one seems to be there
i cant say that they care
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S is for silence, which i need in my head
U is for understand, i'd rather be dead
I is for indecicive of what i believe
C is for crying, unable to breathe
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Once a year i always write to you,
telling you about this year through.
Another year and its the same,
getting through is the aim.
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Fighting to live
fighting for choice
fighting for the better
fighting for a voice
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struggling again to hold on
mixing the voice into a song
fighting against the waves
those hours feel like days
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Hiding in the shadows
i bet you do not see
how i feel about you
what you mean to me
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Emotions overwhelming me
Taking over my mind
how could i be so stupid
How could i be so blind
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porcelain skin with her eyes painted black
delicate wrists stained a pure rosy red
Curled up on the bathroom floor again
crying and hoping that she ends up dead
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