Trying To Make Sense Poem by Katie Anon

How do I feel, what do it want, what to do
I believe deep down life without love not worth living
I have deep doubts about my ability to find love
Life full of self doubt, depression is not a life
But maybe it will fade, I will find a way forward
Don't know how but  maybe possible
 
When i feel good-hope for change
To learn to love self
To overcome self destructive patterns
To live a happier/fufilling life
Then be happy as self maybe then find love
 
When bad-loose hope
Never going to find love
Never be able to change, deep feelings/beliefs
Pointless, No energy desire to care for self
Use any coping mechanisms to lessen feelings
 
When ok, ignore them just fears
Just keep going for hope of change
Continue pushing on, trying to challenge self
Ignore the doubts, just keep going
Motivated by hope I can find love
 
When not ok.. Hope fades
Is nothing, is better than this, too much darkness
Better to be dead? Time limit on all the pain
To care for self, is to lessen the pain?
Life makes no sense anymore..