Unsure Poem by Juliana Willsey

can some one tell me y i feel the way i do? can some one helpe me
i wanna cry but i dont cuz it makes me feel weak...
i sit in the conner of a dark room with my knees pulled tight against my chest
my head on my knees... rocking back and forth..
hoping i will be okay
hoping i wont cry
hoping things will change and life wil be some what normal with out so much pain and abuse
what i am feeling is unexplainable i dont kno how to explain what i am feeling it is more than depression
it is more than sadness more than anger.. i dont kno what it is
y do i keep looking at the past nothing willl ever ever be able to change what i have been through
and what i have seen.. but for some reason i cant stoping looking back
replaying everything that i have happen and have seen in my head over and over again
some one tell me it is gunna be okay some one make me believe them
y is it soo hard for me to forget and except the past and y is it soo hard for me to move forward
y do i dwell on the past? ? ?
can some one explain what i am feeling and y i am feeling it!
hate this feeling
hate being this way
i am ready to give up and hybernate from everyone
to shut my fone off and block everyne out...
wanna push everyone way it is the only way i am safe from being hurt and from me not hurting others
what do i do! !