Juliana Willsey Poems

It's always there.
It creeps to my head.
It sits in the back.
Hits me when it knows I'm weak and
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In my thoughts i am alone
where i fear no one understands
the pain the illness the sadness
the nightly terrors i handle alone
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I am a poet writting of my pain
I am a person living in shame
I am you daughter that hides her depression the best that i can
I am a friend acting like i am fine
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The meds they say will take it away,
but why do the thougths of the past stay?
They dope us up and say it wil be okay,
but do you not hear the pain i say?
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This depression causes me fear
causes the fear in life to come out
the fear or confusion and the fear of loss
I try hard not to think of fear and this depression
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can some one tell me y i feel the way i do? can some one helpe me
i wanna cry but i dont cuz it makes me feel weak...
i sit in the conner of a dark room with my knees pulled tight against my chest
my head on my knees... rocking back and forth..
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