Untitled Poem by alexa dawn

don't even know where to start.right now it's just easier to say nothing at all because sometimes what's left unsaid speaks the loudest


i just wanna scream and lose control, throw my hands up and let it go, i just want to fall and lose myself. forget about everything and runaway


its not the scars you can see on this girl that makes me who i am but the pain i keep inside defines the greatness i could do


i shouldn't have fallen, i should have known you'd just let me hit the ground


just because i come off strong, doesn't mean i don't fall asleep crying. even though i say i'm okay, maybe i'm just really good at lying


i can hold back my tears and hide them with a smile, but i can't hide that hole in my heart


my head is screaming one thing, while my heart is screaming another. i don't know which to listen to, but it's tearing me apart


i'm sorry i'm not pretty enough, i'm sorry i'm not skinny enough, i'm sorry i'm not you're perfect girl


the worst dreams are the ones that feel so real and make me so happy but then i wake up and realize it's not real and my heart is still broken into a billion little pieces


what happens when i run out of fake smiles, i become invisible, yet i'm always in the wrong and my heart crys, and i don't care to fake it anymore


i close my eyes and picture you laying right there, beside me, and then every thing's better, until I open them again


and i sit here and wonder...how many scars can my heart take on before it stops trying to function altogether?