Untitled Poem by Aman Mulji

I was set in the corner by myself,
I could only think of the next ten minutes,
Should I have upset your humor?
Or should I just loiter in my own uncertainty?
I am utterly unsure about what to do,
But what is lucid in my mind -
Is that I want to be with you.
How can I declare what I think of you?
When I am panting for breath in your presence,
All I desire is that you notice me,
And trust that I can be well again.
So I attempt to help you murder time,
but you must leave…
And my tries fail – as my tears fall,
and I bare witness such an aching scene,
one of you walking away.
Along with any hint of pleasure,
That I seized with my own rage,
So now I am left alone with Misery,
Who slithered silently into my existence,
At that very instant…
When will I have another opening?
I want to see you so that I can smile,
And I would depart this misery,
So in time it would be just me and you,
Beyond all the pain this world has in amass for us,
Since I long to see you smile…