Up To Me, Or Down Towards You Poem by James Darwin Smith II

Holding darkness hostage
Till the light comes through
Morbid inclinations
My favourite tool
Broken but put back together
As the crevices expose these flaws
So be it, There can be happiness with doom

Pain so palatable
When adding razorblades and broken glass
Bleeding down torrential torment
Impaled within, but
Smiling with bloody kisses of tomorrow's uncertainties

Everyone needs a distraction
From the very agony they feel
I take it straight on
By winning what I have lost
Suffering till all this depression has been killed

Crying with crimson tears
Cut from the downpour of regret
The past was all a deception
For now I wallow joyfully in the anarchy
Of tomorrow's denial
Jubilant in bittersweet self-determination

The future so bright
Coveted by black light
Mending through the past's shrapnel
Putting it all together
As it becomes armor
In the fight for my life's wellbeing
As I kick to a different start
A new beginning
The very Genesis of me, Free

I never will try
I will always do
Being unnaturally natural as I am
Growing beyond these enigmatic years
Yet, Relishing in the glory of the unknown
So many parts of who I am
There are so many adventures to choose from


Now my pride is renewed
Turned out it never expired
Just needed a great boost towards enlightenment
My own epiphany, the true epiphany I have been waiting for
So long troubling years
Do not let the door hit you in the past;
On the way out

I am rebuilt by my own flaws
A self-taught lesson for a brighter tomorrow
Sorrow, you are not needed right now
I strive to blacken my blues
As white comes in
Accepting me for who I truly am, not you

This enigmatic soul shall ride the skies like there is no tomorrow
Today I reject sorrow
As happiness shall always flow strongly within
That is till I need another mood

Overindulgence is overrated anyhow
Here, here now I have said my peace

Interpret this all on your own deep feelings
Hey, interpret through just your own thoughts
It is all up to you


Up to me, or down towards you