Using All My Trust In you Poem by Katie Anon

I trust that you will listen and won't judge me
That you will always try to understand
That you want to help and you really care
But I can not forget you will not always be there

I trust that my family do love me
That they are people I can always go to
And they would try within their ability
But I worry about their lack of empathy

I trust that friends feel affection for me
That our friendship and feelings are real
And so many things they will happily help me with
But I can not forget they have their own lives to live

I can share my inner struggles with others
And it has helped relationships become more strong
But during the lows it is all I can do to survive
And then it feels like my life becomes a lie

How can I say that I see no future for myself
That part of me does not want to carry on
It is my feelings that I cannot bare
And they are not lessened when I try to share

I am stuck in the way I act each day
By the way my emotions so often cripple me
Feelings of doubt, conflict and insecurity
I am inadequate, frustrated and so lonely

So I believe I must face the real anguish alone
Because it is too much to rely on others
Too hard for them to understand pure apathy
And the hurt and sadness in their eyes I find so hard to see

I trust in friends whom I know care for me
I trust my family will try to do their best
I trust that in you I can always find safety
But I have no faith or trust in me