Valentine's Don'T Matter Poem by Fareez Phalez

What does it mean
To say I love you
Today, this moment
Do you think it's true?

I know words are meaningless
Without actions done
Doubt that I'm serious?
My words are for fun?

What if I say I agree
My words are useless
As useless as myself
No romantic, just a hopeless

I know who I am
And I know where I stand
I've failed a lot of things
Only a few that I can

I've never been the one
To be the moon to your night
To stay out with you
Until the next morning light

Sometimes I can't even be
Like a sun that makes a day
I don't brighten up your life
But behind dark clouds I stay

I'm ashamed of myself
There's a lot I fall short of
Things that I can't reach out to
And maybe yesterday I fell off

And look at us today
February 14, Valentine's
I'm still right here wishing
I can put your hands in mine

But what are all these
You must be confused
Words without actions
I know there's no use

But here's the truth
I have neither love
Nor I have confidence
None of the above

That's why I have only you
A name synonymous to love
As proud as confidence
And more that you're worth of

You are my love
Only you can hurt me
You are my confidence
Only you can cause my insecurity

I've tried so hard
But maybe I'm still not there
Never close to winning
But how long can I bear?

Maybe one day we will
Drift apart sooner or later
Go on, just go on
Like nothing actually mattered

2014