Valerian Poem by Pete Rivera

Don't remind me how I messed it up
I just messed it up, I know this now
You know I know he knows of me
Now I'm alone, but no one sees

Jagged knives bid me to them
The same as I bid you to me
I knew not of my fabric
Or your so called plans elaborate

There were millions and millions of us
Who thought we could defeat fate
But now, I see, I am not my friend
I wasn't with myself at the start
And I won't be in the end

Right there, I saw who I was
Someone lost in the dark
Someone who had lost their mark
And fought without a sword

My allies see me unarmored now
Frown at me frown at me my love
You played my heart and not my lute
And with that there was no fruit

I painted in my mind back then
I knew it would become my destiny
To be lone and like my fault
The freshwater fish tastes not its salt

There were millions and millions of us
Who thought we could defeat fate
But now, I see, I am not my friend
I wasn't with myself at the start
And I won't be in the end

Right there, I saw who I was
Someone lost in the dark
Someone who had lost their mark
And fought without a sword
Twenty nights I cried
Twenty nights I cried

Spaces in time and spaces by me
The sound of hummingbird wings
Beats with me
A lion's roar gave me fear
Not strength
'Till my days be incomplete

And I knew, right there
That I was not myself, my friend
Not in the start and not in the end
Fountains of youth are not of water
And my spirits rest in their tower

You know I know he knows of me
Now I must find my thoughts you see
Killing, killing our fallacies
Ghosts of my own are not good to me
No, they deceive me you see

There were millions and millions of us
Who thought we could defeat fate
But now, I see, I am not my friend
I wasn't with myself at the start
And I won't be in the end

Right there, I saw who I was
Someone lost in the dark
Someone who had lost their mark
And fought without a sword
Twenty nights I cried
Twenty nights I cried

Trapped in my box of fears
The rivers of my flowing tears
And I was wept I mourned for them
The creatures knew not of themselves
And I did not find what I had sought
I only found the truths I caught

There were millions and millions of us
Who thought we could defeat fate
But now, I see, I am not my friend
I wasn't with myself at the start
And I won't be in the end

Right there, I saw who I was
Someone lost in the dark
Someone who had lost their mark
And fought without a sword
Twenty nights I cried
Twenty nights I cried