Wake Up With Pain Poem by Ireece Mae Montero

I was praying for my death last night
Couldn’t bare the pain inside
I remember myself saying
Please let it be nightmare, I kept on repeating
Tears fell like rain
I wanted out from this pain
Listened to this song just to ease somehow
Played it for three times, I just couldn’t take a bow
But I blame myself for this
Cause I always make mistakes
The bricks of our foundation falling slowly
And it’s all because of me
I don’t want to see it ruin
Like piece by piece until left into nothing
Man above knows my pain
I’m an eyesore like a stain
I admit my wrong doing
Yet what I get is suffering
I don’t want to wake up and face another day
I’m alone and confuse, is this the right way?
I want my pain to be over
Help me! I’m a worst lover
More pain less happiness
Will I still go on and pass God’s test?