Was It Real? Poem by Casey A Geiger

I try to breathe slowly, to forget that you are gone,
I keep forcing back the tears, it's time that I move on.
Was it real or a fantacy, that never could exist,
Like a spirit fastly fleeing, through the cover of a mist,
I wish the rain would drown me slowly, so that I don't have to feel,
The reminence of a love, that probably wasn't even real.
Is it love when you wish that you are always somewhere else,
Is it love when you look at me and your heart no longer melts,
Can there be love without a friendship to hold that bond together,
Could we get through this if we tried and make it last forever?
Should love be forced or be a task, I am asking if it's true,
Because for me it was so easy, Why wasn't it for you?
It wasn't love I guess, I wasn't blessed when we met,
I was wrong and now your gone, and I'm left trying to forget,
Still I miss you for some reason like something isn't fair,
And you'll go on like nothings wrong, like our love was never there,
It's the same thing every time this cycle spins around,
I keep building you up- just so you can tear me down.