What? Poem by NAYYAR SHABBIR AHMAD

I saw you yesterday
don’t look so surprised
I know, in order to avoid me
you live in another County

For a long time after we broke up
I never saw a thing
save you
In fact
you were in my every thought
my every deed

Then suddenly
Or - do I mean gradually?
I’m not sure, which
things feel so hazy
you were lost to me
completely

And now when I look at you
standing here before me
I rack my brains
Trying to think
what the hell did I ever see in him
What?

All those tears I shed
and all those times I wished I was dead
I must have looked like a right old twerp
in the eyes of my friends
O God!
Falling apart because of this jerk!
.
What, for God’s sake did I see in him
please tell me
WHAT? ? ! !