What Can I Say? Poem by Rajan Thapaliya

SITTING BY THE WINDOW LOOKING OUT AND ALL
I CAN SEE IS THE REFLECTION OF YOU. WONDERING
IF YOU ARE KEEPING AN EYE ON ME, BUT WHAT CAN
I SAY OR WHAT CAN I DO WITH MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU,
I SURELY JUST WANT TO DIE.

SITTING HERE AND JUST REMEMBERING ALL THE
THINGS WE WENT THROUGH, ALL OUR JOURNEYS,
ALL THE CROSSROADS THAT WE FACE TO CHOOSE.
THE RIGHT ONE AND I KNOW I DID BUT WHAT CAN
I SAY OR WHAT CAN I DO WITH MY LIFE WITHOUT
YOU, I SURELY JUST WANT TO DIE.

AND THESE CROSSROADS THAT I COME TO WONDER
IF THEIR ARE STAIRS THAT I CAN CLIMB TO BE WITH
YOU AND HAVE YOUR ARMS AROUND ME ONCE MORE
AND TO HAVE YOUR SWEET VOICE TO SAY I LOVE YOU
BUT WHAT CAN I SAY OR WHAT CAN I DO WITH MY LIFE
WITHOUT YOU I SURELY WANT TO DIE.

AS THE SUNSET COME AND THE DOLPHIN'S SWIMS AND
THE LIGHTS HITS WHERE THE COLORS OF RED.BLUE,
PURPLE AND GREEN THAT CHANGES THE COLORS OF MY
HEART AND SOUL WHEN I AM MISSING YOU BUT WHAT
CAN I SAY OR WHAT CAN I DO WITH MY LIFE
WITHOUT YOU, I SURELY JUST WANT TO DIE.

WHERE THE WARMTH, WHERE MY HEART, WHERE
MY SOUL I HAVE NONE OF THESE THINGS WITHOUT
YOU, SO WHAT CAN I SAY OR WHAT CAN I DO WITH
MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU, BUT I SURELY JUST WANT
TO DIE.

BUT HOW CAN I LOVE SOMEONE ELSE WHEN I KNOW
MY HEART IS SO FAR…FAR AWAY AND I KNOW I CAN ' T
GET IT BACK SO WHAT CAN I SAY OR WHAT CAN I DO
WITH MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU, I SURELY JUST WANT
TO DIE,

WILL I EVER LOVE AGAIN I DON' T BUT I DO KNOW
WHEN MY HEART COMES BACK TO ME THEN MAYBE
I WILL LOVE AGAIN, THE ONLY ONE THAT WILL KNOW
IS MY HEART SO UNTIL THEN WHAT CAN I SAY OR
WHAT CAN I DO WITH MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU,
I SURELY JUST WANT TO DIE.

Rajan Thapaliya
New York USA