What It Is Not Poem by Katerina Val

Yet, I' m using words like swords
And I'm changing sides whenever I forget to go
Each time I forget to set myself to belong
I try to call silently your distant name
But you seem to hide your pride behind our priceless shame

I forget to cut your heart open
And you forget to dry my tears
Oh, these sweet lonely signals
You were giving your core to me
I was running to the center
But I was hurting before I even reached the top
Descending to a shelter
Using your hidden enemies
I could never really hope
You' d let them go

I thought that love was all I should care to give
Though your eyes would let me be and hide for eternity
Be whatever my head needed me to be

Whenever I ‘d call your shy scared name
You ‘d hide yourself behind their worthless shame
But, no, love was just a rushed despair
Lonely I was denying the meanings behind the share
And you had to whisper "darling you ‘re not exactly fair"
I, was never really there.

I thought that love should be the one thing I should worry to lose
Though, your eyes would cut me open
And let me choose
It was never love what we had behind
It was not love we feared to lose between all this fearless pride
It was me, our tears, it was you

It's not love that binds our scars together
Yet I doubt, but I know
It's not the love
Not what keeps us scarily strong
It's the way we cannot be
When one of us stands alone
Because it's on the way that all things then become incomplete.