Where Are You Now? Poem by Melissa Joy Chesky

When you laugh,
I get warmth
Rushing down through
My body.
That warmth could
Protect me when
I get cold inside.
Your laugh is like
A blanket.

When you sit
Next to me,
I get lonliness
Smothering my soul.
I miss you because
I know I can't have you.
Your kindness is a
Constant reminder of
What I don't and can't have.

When you touch
My neck,
I get shivers
Bolting up my spine.
I shiver not because I'm
Scared of you,
It's because it's a
Surprise how soft
Your touch can be.

When your around,
I get mixed emotions
For you;
Love, because I can
Never stop loving you.
Hatred,
For you rejecting
Me.

Where are you now?
I'm getting colder
And colder as the
Seconds pass.
My heart is as cold
And frozen as a glacier.

Where are you now?
I feel lonliness
Building inside,
But you're no where
To be seen.

Where are you now?
I can't feel your soft touch;
I'm numb to the
World without you here.

Where are you now?
My mixed emotions
Have summed up to only
One emotion;
Regret for letting
You leave.

Where are you now?
Come melt my glaciered heart.
Come tear down my wall
Of lonliness.
Come give me an antidote
For this novacaine.
Come and take away
My regret for
Letting you leave.