Which One? ! Poem by Jessica Licklider

live or die? !
pain or happiness? !
which one do i pick?
im tired of the pain and misery
its driving me insane
i wanna say screw it all and end it
i dont know what to do!
i wanna die
though i dont wanna hurt the ones i love
gosh i hate this!
why me? !
i just want it all to go away
if only there was someway
everything would be SO much easier
I hate my life, my heart, myself
with a bang, a slice, a rope i could but i cant
certain things make me forget
i dont know what to do!
give me pills, blades, cigs, LOVE
thats that make me forget my troubles
good or bad habits
i dont care
just give me so i can be happy
PLEASE IM BEGGING! !