Whispers Poem by Tendai Evans

I think of you when awake and can’t sleep. I have never known someone who could possess my heart as do you. I think of you when happiness is a breath away, I think of you when I weep. I have never been alone now I wonder lonely without you. I stare at the future with faint vision. I seem infinitely stuck unable to take action. I am drifting away to seclusion but the world devours me deeper into un-nerving questions. I am missing the comfort of love though it’s the cause of my judgement. I pick myself though I know I will soon fall. There is no agency in wiping away the tears I shed for soon flesh ones will run. I look at the heavens and wonder. I watch the sky through tears and ponder. It starts as a sweet thought that turns sour then the memories scream louder. I have lost you and I had not seen it coming. I feel empty harnessed to a life of neglect. At a dead end, I stand alone, with a deformed heart in my hands. In vain I try but to the bitterness of senses you still reject all my sincere advances. Love and youth have capsized my sailing ship. The last strikes tossing me in oblivion for you fight a silent war. My broken heart will not give me peace. I sink almost in a deep infant’s sleep dreaming, dreaming of a hostile world that has ripped me wide open.