Who Is He? Poem by something changing

god?
who is he?
is he the one the took away
the friend we all now mourn for?
is he the one that refused
that strength we needed to get through?
is he the one that never
took me by the hand and said,
'you don't have to hurt anymore'?
is he the one that doesn't serve justice
on the ones that've done wrong?
and that only added on more suffering
to the ones who've been suffering all along?
is that he?
for surely he is not who you say he is
the one who gives help when asked
(for i asked and did not receive)
or the one who opens the eyes to see
(for i've still not been convinced to believe)