something changing Poems

dear brother
will i ever see you again?
or have i lost another friend?
i know you had to go
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tears fall
hearts break
when you lose it all
smiles are fake
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Life is cruel
Life is pain
Life is nothing
But guilt and shame
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as the snare clicks
my feet hit the ground
steady with the beat
i can't look around
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this heart of mine
cries tears still
because still he is gone
a ghost of memory
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I'm sorry
I failed again
I just keep letting you down
And I'm sure it'll happen again
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my heart has stopped
my soul has gone
i am dead
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Stupid blade
You think you know me
I hear you call my name
But in fact
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again...
can i go through this again?
at least there's
not as much attachment
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i have to try to remember your voice
or else
i can't hear it
your laugh eludes me
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